Missing

Have been missing alot of ... things, people, etc... lately...

Anyway the birthday holiday was quite okie... at least it's a totally different experience from the past few yrs... Other than the rather unhappy encounter with the local guide during the last 2 days, really glad that I'm able to spend time with my jie and cjq again (Esp the last nite at the hotel room when we kept shouting at each other to be heard hahaz.. really missed them ard at home now that sis is married and bro in army..)

Learn abt my team member 'departure' news when i finally hv the chance to solo lunch with her on last Thursday... really shocked abt it when I heard it.. but i guessed im getting numb with these news lately.. anyway that's a bad thursday since there's the Doc's hse meeting to go to.. luckily they hv drained off the swimming pool water after the ponding test if not i'll be asked (by my best friend) to swim in it. Back to office at ard 6pm to do the ad hoc work which i hv no qualms of it at 1st.. but the person din bothered to give me much briefing and (maybe im sensitive or something.. think she dun reallie like me.. well its mutual i guess) even sarcastically said that 'yah we all know u'll be on leave tmr... juz do wad u can bah'... wad's that supposed to mean.. im wrong to be on leave or wad...N the maddening thing was she left earlier than me and without checking on if im having queries or problems with her stuff. Im like wasting my time in office doing things that r not appreciated while i can be at home spending some last civilian time with my brother....

Friday the 13th - me, mama & papa sending cjq to isle tekong. 1st time there and we had a short tour while bro joined the other boys for enlistment.. totally cant imagine my baby brother who is so thin and kiddish looking going to be a solider.. feel kinda of worried if he can really adapt to the training and the army life.. but i guess that's wad every boy must undergo to be a man as the slogan goes. Had army food with him before leaving the isle in the rain.
Went to do my hair at Marcus' before meeting the uni gals for dinner and gift shopping for mos' wedding gift.. also bought this 3-d jigsaw puzzle thingy for team member farewell gift.. haiz.. mos managed to join us after that so we got the chance to 'grill' him on his proposal, honeymoon plans, etc... happy for this 'brother' ... N this will be the 1st church wedding i will be attending :)

Went back to office on Saturday to work for 6hr with nest and had supper with her at chang cheng zhou.... always glad to hv her with me if i come back to work on sat.. if not will be real lonely and sianz.... Sunday was spent with best friend wj, which we passed our basic evaluation and finally got our basic theory test date 05 may 07 (mos' wedding day, my mama's bdae and germ's bdae too), we tried to block book our practical driving lessons too but after wasting almost 1 hr at the comp terminals, we realised we cant possibly get the same slots coz we r in the same grp so the instructors wun be available for both of us at the same time.. went to west mall to laze the rest of sunday away with best friend.. been some time we last spent solo times together at the place where we frequent during our JC days..felt so old juz to think of it haz..

Monday - supposed to hv dinner with mdm and curly neighbour but last mintue postphoned due to curly neighbour's flight changes. Anyway, as nest hv said, its probably good for me to be out of the 'awkward' situation.. it's a sure thing that im glad to be working under mdm.. but somehow feel that im nt considered that 'close' to her like curly neighbour.. there's this unseen barrier mainly coz she's still mysuperior and i do respect her alot.. :)
Team member told me her last day was brought forward to wed instead.. so this muz be shortest time ever a closed one had ever gave me to prepare for her last day (at least MCEO and curly neighbour gave me a full month to be prepared...tm reallie matched LLB's record haz) glad to hv the chance to send her home on Monday and Tuesday... haiz.. really sad that I no longer hv a team member to share team news... im like once again drifting further away from my own team..sobz..

Tuesday - Last lunch with team member together with dodo, nest, and oso injured neighbour who onli got to know she will be taking over tm's project... glad to still hv injured neighbour in my row/team.. Nest seems to be in bad mood tt day.. if not we wld hv went for the free cable car ride with tm..

Gotta go for the site handover for my cursed project on Wednesday and met the new Project Manager..whom looked like an ordinary auntie with no links to our line...Anyway this project is really cursed as i hv already lost impt pple during milestones - 1. Gam when i 1st got news i'll be handling a new project. 2. him when my mdm attended the 1st and only mtg with me for this project. 3. MCEO & Curly neighbour - when the project finally going to be awarded. 4. - Team member whose last day falls on the day the project finally commenced.... sure hope that i wun meet with further casualties in the next 20mths to go.... with the uncertainty if im still ard to see this project thru.
Luckily i was back to office in time to see team member off.. n beauty fang was in a frenzy to get her stuff done b4 leaving for her jap holiday.. looks like i will hv no reason to linger at that row any more....

Totally no mood on Thursday and went home via bus (considered rare... haz) and finally finished my '5 pple u meet in heaven' on the bus.. quite touched by it.. will continue with the teaser 'squel' the 5 jerks u meet on earth'.. saw the email on the ad hoc work again..and my nite was spoilt.. So Friday started off in a bad mood.. which injured neighbour wasnt too happy too, so we sorta exchanged our complaints on work stuff. Worked OT on the ad hoc work which made me blood boil again as the dwgs this time is more complicated and im still to work on it with no idea if im doing is wad the person wants.. N once again the person left without proper instructions and earlier than me... the only consolation came from nest and injured neighbour.
One good thing that happened on that Friday nite was when the IT rep saw me working so late , he suddenly decided to change my antique looking computer with a brand new LCD comp.. (Which is like already so common elsewhere but not my office!) Wanted to clean and re-configure my working space layout on Saturday but was chased out by best friend as he came back in the middle of nite juz to take his week's supply of newspapers... duh.. went supper with nest at CQ satay club and spent the nite eating heaty food and sometimes serious sometimes mindless senseless talk with nest..

Sunday - dun feel too good and didnt join the uni gals for the making of mos' wedding gift.. anyway spent the day clearing my table in order to use the computer.. its piled up since i left for the holidays and haven been touched till today... threw away alot of stuff including some aged receipts and stuff in my drawers...
i guess... even if i thought i felt alot better liao... there's alwayz the little small stuff that wld draw those memories out again..as the radio blasted the song '我怀念的‘..

sure hope i will be numb to that song soon.... after listening to it for so many times..

to be continued....

Happy Birthday

Here's wishing beloved twin & myself a Happy Birthday ")

Though my actual day hv nt arrived, i hv already had at least 2 celebration sessions, think i can really celebrate for 2 whole weeks:)

Colleagues from my row, 'expert', xy and new neighbour treated me pepper lunch @ central on Tuesday (Exactly 1 week earlier :) and we had some 'row-bonding'. Ex-neighbour came back on Thurs for her FA, her presence already a good present for me.. really missed her in my background, the sight of her whenever i turned in that direction. I guess LB too shld be missing her and LLB.. think she shld be quite stressed out these days, trying my best to give support in whatever ways i cld, since i wun be ard for her next week.

Birthday Surprise No. 1 came on Friday afternoon when Rozie called me to go out to reception.. Hv expected it to be normal flowers kinda of stuff from nest and dodo they all.. until i saw the BIG floating Eeyore Balloon delivered by an amused uncle..i froze momentarily..coz that's wad i hv alwayz wanted...(from him. which he did give me once) Really didnt expect to receive this but really appreciate the surprise from gam, nest, dodo, mceo, tart, small gal and my latest lover germ who gave me royce chocolates too. So for the rest of the afternoon, the BIG balloon floated ard my workstation, attracting people who passed by my partition to give bemused comments and looks. The show goes on when we finally left office at 7pm for dinner at PS. Nest kept rushing me while im still undecided as to whether to leave my balloon in office instead. So when i said that we probably need a table for 4 to house this balloon, nest blurted out that shld be table for 5 mah....instantly received shooting glares from dodo.. that's when i realised that might be an additional person joining, immediately thought that it will be GAM:)

The Big Balloon!

Birthday Surprise No. 2 was finally revealed when we approached Swensons at PS..kept looking ard since im already expected some1 waiting, until i caught glance of dear mceo.. da hei and their 2 adorable kids!!! I was REALLY REALLY surprised..that i nearly wanna cry haz... never expected to see her again sooo soon.. after 1 March departure..it seems like alot of things happened within this period of time, reallie missed her ard during lunch and email corr. hope we'll still manage to see her so often.. Shld hv suspected something else going on when nest kept saying she's in drinking mode that nite, coz i reallie dun mind ending the nite early to go home in da hei. So we detour back to CQ during which nest was kept busy with alot of sms and calls that i complained loudly that she shld hv paid more attention to bday gal me instead of her new found romance. It was after we finally settled down at The Clinic, that nest showed me her phone with gam's sms.. apparently there's supposed to be Surprise No. 3 with gam joining us for drinks after her badminton, but it seems like there's a series of unfortunate events happening at her side.. i dint feel disappointed at all, but was instead very touched by what nest, dodo, gam and mceo's efforts to make me happy on my day. i remembered me telling nest that i dun mind no presents at all, my only request is to be with everyone again. (since i doubt very much they will still be here this time next yr with some many departures ard..) really appreciate nest's efforts admist her 'turbulent romantic week'... Had a jug of Long isle tea and then bailey irish cream and graveyard for second round, with dodo on the house. My 2nd drink was canceled as they thought im ready to knock out any mmt..truth is i was only trying to hold back the breakdown.. Anyway I thought i was already quite drunk this time but the ultimate session's juz the next nite haz.


MCEO & Kids; Nest & Me at The Clinic

Wld hv sleep in till noon if not for the theory driving lessons booked weeks ago.. endured the long hours of theory lessons with wj and persuaded her to come to office with me as i tried to do some work before meeting 2A pple for twin's bday dinner at UE square, En bar. Adjourned to double O after that.. thou i wasnt really keen to go chiong after the nite b4 if not for twin's bday.. fangyi and minghui left after dinner and twin's friend elvin joined us at the pub. We cldnt get a table depsite the prospect of opening bottle..so wj found a table of 4 young guys and requested to share table with us.. N in the bid to be friendly, we appointed dee to ask their age.. turn out as expected tha they r army guys at 22 yrs old..they guessed correctly our ages except for momo to be at 18yrs old haz.. since im not into dancing, i kept at the table and its nt b4 long that one of the guys started talking to me.. it was ok at 1st as the others were ard.. but after a few jugs of liquor and dozens of shots courtesy from elvin, cy got too drunk and dee hv to take care of her, jimmy,wj, lian, momo went dancing while jj and elvin went to get more drinks..left me alone at table with the 4 guys... so thou i was quite helpless alone and being 'attacked' by requests to dance with them and birthday kisses (we sang bday song for twin n me earlier on), good thing is they r still considered to be 'quite decent' guys (from their rather geeky dance style), luckily twin n elvin came back to the table in time to rescue me from the 'harassment'.. i was almost 'gone' by that time, cldnt walk properly and feel like knocking out any moment. Found the rest of them at a quieter place, trying to be sobering up haz.. its really the most high nite with my highest alcohol consumption ever that i dun even noe how much i drank haz.. at least din puke out the expensive jap dinner b4 the chiong-ing.

Spent the whole of Sunday resting and trying to pack for my Shanghai trip.. gonna spend my actual bday flying in the sky:)

to be continued....

p.s. really a BIG thank u to all whom hv made me felt remembered and loved.
love ya all