我怀念的

作词:姚若龙 作曲:李偲菘

我问为什么 那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么 不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我 不愿意敷衍我
还是明白 你已不想挽回什么

想问为什么 我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么 却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕真相太赤裸裸 狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日 也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空 最紧的右手 最暖的胸口
谁记得 谁忘了

想问为什么 我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么 却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕真相太赤裸裸 狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日 也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空 最紧的右手 最暖的胸口
谁忘了

我怀念的是无言感动
我怀念的是绝对炽热
我怀念的是你很激动 求我原谅 抱得我都痛
我记得你在背后 也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌 最美的烟火 最长的相拥

谁爱得太自由 谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心 谁忘了那就是承诺
谁自顾自地走 谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重 谁忘了要给你温柔

我怀念的 我还有想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日 也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空 最紧的右手 最暖的胸口
我放手 我让座
假洒脱 谁懂我 多么不舍得
太爱了所以我 没有哭 没有说

to be continued....

逆光

也许我一直害怕有答案
也许爱静静在风里打转
离开释怀很短暂又重来
有时候自问自答
我不要困难把我们击散
我责备自己那么不勇敢
遗憾没有到达
拥抱过还是害怕
用力推开你我依然留下

有一束光 那瞬间
是什么痛得刺眼
你的视线是谅解
为什么舍不得熄灭
我逆着光 却看见
那是泪光 那力量
我不想再去抵挡
面对希望 逆着光
感觉爱存在的地方
一直就在我身旁

我以为我能后退
反复证明这份爱有多不对
背对着你如此漆黑 忍住疲惫
睁开眼打开窗 才发现你就是光芒

当我决定爱上一个人的时候，永不放弃。。。我逆着光， 即使痛得刺眼，却看见希望

未完成。。。

Against The Light

This was supposed to be my 1st post using my brand new laptop:) Acer Aspire 5584 bought from the crazy and super crowded IT show last saturday, 10 March 2007, which is oso the same day which i finally enrol for driving lessons with best friend, WJ.

Had a fun day with her n CY unexpectedly coz it wasnt a planned meet-up., glad to have CY with me at the chaotic IT show...haz. Feel super broke now after buying my hp, laptop and the driving lessons ahead...nonetheless felt it's all worth spending for the stuff i have alwayz wanted.. next coming up wld be the family holiday on my bday week.. hope everything will goes well despite the workstuff now.

Guess i wld have to really start watching my finances after all these hapenings haz.. after the so-called 'insurance review' i had recently. Looks like im not having a healthy savings habit :(
Exchanged a few updates with Agent on our classmates, had not seen them for a loong time after missing a couple of recent gatherings. For me , i guess i will still stay in my line for the time being considering the hype lately.

The much-anticipated stef sun's new album (at least for me..)'Against the light' is finally out!! bought the pre-sale promotion package and had mum to help me collect on the 22nd March 2007. Now repeating the 12 tracks on my player every moment :) Loving the songs more, the more i listen.. definitely better than the previous 'A perfect day' and gaining equal status in my ranking as the album 'Stefanie'. Especially the 2 lyrics i hv posted here.. initially thought track 05 wld be another 'stef-trademark' love song since it's the 2nd 主打歌，but after looking seriously at the lyrics and the MV.. left me tearing as i sang along.. guess some of her songs in this album really strike chords in my heart. Yeah, got more songs to sing in KTV hahaz..Anyway, felt especially 'loved' on this day when i arrived at work with a choco milk on my table (from LB), doreamon magnet from team member, a blue rose from ex-curly neighbour, bday cake from nest, chinteng from injured neighbour,approved leave, etc... was feeling quite down with a spinning head but was really cheered up by these gestures albeit small but really warmed me..

Met up with Twin who juz returned from her overseas stint to several countries ha.. n lian, CY and dee n twin's friend, at CQ on an otherwise lonely friday nite.. but was physically drained out by the end of the 1st drink and had to go home abit earlier than expected..

Went for our 1st basic theory driving lessons with WJ, its like years since we last sat together for lessons.. haz. quite boring when the instructor drags on with non-technical stuff like how drinking and driving dun mix.. blar.. blar.. yah it sure looks scary with all those accidents video clips.. having 2nd thots abt really driving hahaz..Went back to office and glad to hv nest's company.. somehow feel that we've sorta drifted abit after mceo left.. as she got more n more involved with other pple. . cant claimed much rights on her anyway haz.. so can only cherish those moments while she's still here.

With 6 more working days to go b4 my birthday holiday, i actually woke up from a 'nitemare' of not finishing my work tasks... guess im really too into it as ex-neighbour says..

Muz look forward to my Shanghai holiday :)

to be continued..

A moment to Remember

The doggy year dogged with a series of unexpected events had finally left.. Twin heard from somewhere that the piggy year is supposed to be good for us haz.. hmm.. so far soooo... ok.. i hoped

Worklife after the CNY break seems to be rippling with changes... the only guy at my row left on Gam's 1st yr anniversary, MCEO left on 1st March- the day we got a new neighbour and other influx of newbies, and not to mention dear curly neighbour who'll be leaving on the day that used to be significant to me..More pple r leaving including LLB whom i had very little contact.. kinda weird thou, cant really explain workings of my so-called sub-team.. and the yang-qi team. Even the architect considered to be the most friendly one i had met so far, is leaving.. guess its really a volatile period of leave..

Had a fun and high day on MCEO's last day.. planned to present her with a mini- powerpoint similar to wad i did for Gam but cldnt finish it due to a super tired head. So, had this brilliant idea to wear the skirt the MC gave to me last birthday.. ha.. for the record, this is the 1st time im wearing a skirt to work (during office hours that is).. plus i gotta go for the most dreaded site mtg that day.. nonetheless, it had achieved the EFFECt.. with even BB seeing it.. super paiseh and not in the mood for work ha.. guess i feel more comfortable in pants.. Went west mall swensons for dinner with MCEO & family.. Kids are super CUTE, esp the daughter.cant stop hugging her.. haz. and MCEO's house is really neat and clean. ENVY man!! muz really keep in touch with MCEO and the kids!

Read from somewhere that one shldnt introduce too many changes in your life at one go.. but i guess u cant really control the change around yourself... been trying hard to cherish what seems to be the remaining moments left with pple dear to me.. thou my engery levels/morale's slipping...

To be continued...