I will miss U

Sis's wedding 27-01-07












I realised this is the only family photo we took that nite..
Anyway, here's wishing my dear da jie jie a romantic honeymoon & blissful marriage ahead..
I will miss u ard..

to be continued..

I Believe Myself

抬头看远方的星光
悄悄的照亮 幸福的方向
紧抓着梦的翅膀 穿越漫长黑夜的荒凉
看见你在前方

拥抱我 一天天累积着感动
在心中 温暖了我的天空
I Believe Myself 做最完美的我
在风雨中我会看见你珍贵笑容
I Believe Myself 裹着伤敢的痛
你会陪着我直到最后阳光闪动
I Believe

心愿等待一个时机
成全梦想的美丽 绽放在手心
我等待相遇的奇迹
所以用力呼吸
翻越你的足迹

流浪在未知的路上
也许偶而会彷徨
但心中渴望的力量让我不停飞翔

My song for the week, not becoz of project superstar male finalist, and for the record i prefer Shi Xinhui's version (thou this song supposed to be from a Jap singer).. Anyway the week that juz passed can be considered quite a happening week for me since I haven been going out for the past couple of weekend.

Monday was 'team-bonding' day for me as I went to the site meeting with my mdm.. its the 1st meeting of the year we went together...since I have been going to meetings alone more frequently. So I'm really cherishing the times where there's her companion... since what the future (work path) holds is still uncertain at the moment. After the meeting ends, the architect started chatting with her on the duration they had stayed in the present company, he suddenly shot me a remark jokingly that I shld stay in my company for long (so as to take care of the project till completion). I juz smiled and didnt say anything coz that was exactly what i was thinking about when i went to another project with Boz last week. Will I really stay that long till the completion of these projects? (sure hope my mdm's still around then) Guess I will have to consider my career path seriously after apprasial this year. Worked OT as usual but its the 1st time i shared cab with team member and the cabby we met was really weird.. he was preaching to me, quite agitatedly for the whole journey on the importance of religion...

Spent Tuesday and Wednesday OT on the editing of the team gathering photos taken, using the Picasa2 software - didnt realise that there is this interesting fuction of 'collage', combing 2 or more photos to grids, or random photo piles..thou cant control the layout, but cant complain much since this is a freeware. Twin sugg dinner so i asked her to get pple to come to my area instead so i can meet them for after-dinner drinks where it's Kandi bar again with twin, CY & lian. Learnt abt lian's expensive proposal at HK, real romantic and sweet but her only concern was the $ spent haha.. typical auntie lian.. learnt abt a few other updates while i oso updated them abt my recent happenings.. since i guess they never read my blog ha!

Mama told me someone sent a book to me in our mailbox, 'the girls' guide to surviving a break-up' with a post-it note saying that its's from 'a friend'... as of now, i still dunnoe who's this friend, so some points noted here with the following clues:
1. the person shld be my sec school friend, since my 'real name' and my home address is known.
2. the person shld be a girl?? coz the book doesnt exactly look brand new with the pages abit yellowish at the sides..a hand-me-down book?
3. ther person juz assumed my family knew abt it.. which my close friends know that i haven really informed them..
Anyway, to answer the 'friend', I've been reading quite frequently recently thou its books from the same authors. (Author of 'P.S. I Love You' and the one who wrote the shop-coholic series) Juz bought the latest book 'the place called here' so i guess this will take precedence from the guidebook, since i have passed the most difficult period.. i hope.. at least i have done things, that's similar to what's prescribed in the guidebook, to help me get over the 1st few days,weeks, and months..maybe will see if i can find anything in this book on coping with 'the drastic after-math news' and move on faster..

Nest sugg going to the opening of the lastest Sentosa beach pub 'Cafe De Mar' on friday, so we cabbed there after OT with tart and another of nest' friend.. the pub is interesting in a way coz its juz beside the beach and the whole atmosphere is very laid-back and causal since there's alot of beach wear pple..but we didnt find it too appealing to us and left after walking ard.

Yest. was the most packed Saturday i had in months.. Went to the mosque groundbreaking ceremony (the 1st i attended) and was quite an experience.. the women and men were seated separately and same goes for the Q for food after the ceremony. I think im really the ONLY non-malay female there and the pple there actually asked me to join the men Q instead.. was quite worried if i accidentally do something which is a taboo to them.
Went KTV with twin, pei e and CY at Dynasty thou CY only joined for less than 1/2 hr and pei e left early.. still had a fun time with twin as we duet the song '解脱‘with great rapport, maybe coz of wad we both r facing at the mmt..
Met Wj, momo, lian, yy n hubby for dinner at Vivo before we went over to St James. momo and lian nt in party mode (yy n hubby r by default farmers.. ha), so were 'replaced' by GS and dee. Went to this 'boiler room' which everyone calles it 'Tiger Live' instead ha!.. The performance there by the live band and HOt-looking girls r not bad.. thou the band's really too loud..The nite out ended abruptly when the waiter came over and 'accused' us of occupying a reserved table.. humph! It's their own fault for not telling us that we gotta give up the tabe once their 'guests' arrived...

Pretty Babes @ 'Tiger Live'!

Spent the whole of sunday catching up my sleep and trying to sort out the photos... that's really alot to organise and edit since im quite 'obessed' with making my photos look interesting with Picasa. guess that wld be the same for the week to come since its' gonna be my sis's BIG DAY..
the fact that she is going to leave our house 'for good' only hit me when i was 'stealing' clothes from her wardrobe yesterday......i guess i will really miss my sister.. and her clothers.. :)

to be continued...

Alone in Love

Another rainy week...the weather has really gone cranky these days.. I guess i have survived this week without any major breakdown.. other than the 'crisis' at work on Monday and Tuesday (never failed to trouble my superior with countless sms whenever she is on leave).

Went back to school with nest and mceo for a seminar talk on Wednesday, was really fun as we ate new canteen food, looking for our hard bound dissertations collecting dust in IRC and trying to point out the changes here and there... though it was only about 1 year plus since i left school. Anyway, its a very rare 1st time for the 3 of us to be walking around leisurely in 'broad week-daylight' and we can actually have so much 'fun & laughter' shopping at the small bazzar at forum..Da hei came and fetch us home and I actually reached home before 7pm on a weekday.. its juz like returning home after a normal school day for me.. really missed the feeling of coming home at dinnertime and eating a warm dinner as it rained outside.. A simple yet one of my happier days this year.

Thursday was abit weird for me...even my injured neighbour popped over and asked why i was in a bad mood.... I guess i've suddenly hit by a weird thought as i returned from a morning meeting (this project is cursed anyway..) with boz... anyway the day ended with a super low mood - wet, cold and hungry as i tried to catch a cab home in the rain.

The rain continued till Friday but my mood improved as i was distracted by other stuff.. Team member bought a new phone K800i which was delivered to office, so happy for her.. haiz.. think its really time for me to take concrete actions to get my N80 IE version.. Packed up promptly at 6plus to help team member and beauty fang to load stuff into the car for our team gathering. The 3 organisers really put in lotsa of effort and time to do up the stuff and i can only chip in my manual help thou i think they shld get a guy instead ha.. had some difficulty tranporting all those heavy stuff esp the hampers to the function room itself as we have to carry them up the steps and all.. the food wasnt as great as the previous gathering but the games are more interesting and really gets everyone excited and invloved. Overall rating was considered better than the previous one thou i didnt exactly njoyed myself as much.... stayed back to have another round of drinks with the organisers and some others.. the company is abit strange where everyone suddenly become good friends with one another.. perhaps its the alcohol ha..

Originally planned to go out with wj & co. on saturday but plan was postphoned...so might as well finish up my K-drama, "Alone in Love". It's abt a divorced couple who still have feelings for each other but chose to separate due the death of their child. Plot is ok and managed to have me crying at the later episodes, perhaps coz i can really put myself in the shoes of Son Yejin's character.. being alone in love, the loss, pain, loneliness and suffering and the trademark action of feeling her own heartbeat. Her acting's really good.. no wonder she won the best actress for this drama in some Korean TV awards, there's still room for improvement for her singing thou i was touched by her singing scene at her ex-hubby's wedding.

노영심의 "Thank you"
written by Rho Young-shim
sung by Son Yejin in Epsiode 15 of 'Alone in Love'

I think I told you too much
about the unconscious boundless greed in my mind.
I lose my breath before my mind, and my words.
But I have something more to say.
It seemed to me that you wouldn't understand my mind
So I've added new wounds on previous ones again and again.
I'd rather mouth down than hurt each other.
But, I have the last word to tell you.
"Thank you very much."
I don't know why it was so hard for me to say this.
The word I've almost forgotten while coming a long way round.
"Thank you very much."

This entry is getting too long yah... perhaps it's my way to feel my own existence as i reflected on how my days passed.
Let's hope for a bright sunny week to come :)

to be continued...

I will be back

To keep up with one of my new year resolutions, here goes the 2nd post of the yr...

The new year started off with the usual busy workstuff but i'm glad i kept to my target of reaching home 'early' enough to catch the new channel U 10pm drama. Hope I will keep to this 'timeline' for the rest of yr... Catch up with nest and dodo with our 1st drinking session of the year.. been a long long time since we last went out for drinks..not a bad nite out as we checked out the new pubs at CQ (saw our ex-collegue, the most handsome dude there too). Went to this 'Kandi Bar' which they r having this 1-for-1 promotion till 9pm, ordered 2 jugs of vodlka green tea and then another round of drinks, which i ordered chivas on-the-rocks. Not too bad though i switched drinks with dodo halfway ha.. maybe i can try out all those hard liquors on-the-rocks since haven really try them all.

Planned to have a good rest over the weekend since my running nose is still as bad as new yr's eve... but it grew worse after a rather shocking discovery i made when i went online to check my emails...words cant describe how i felt.. not that im going to describe any way... totally unexpected but as wad best friend wj says.. perhaps this is something good for me too, which i agreed but i really really cannot take it at the point of the time... the pain and the hurt.

I will be strong.. i can feel it.. i will be ok....

juz learnt of another sad piece of news from my beloved mdm, that her closed one juz passed away and she'll be on leave for the next few days....my loss is nothing compared to this... I must buck up for the week to come...

i will be back.

to be continued...

1 litres of tears...A New Start

'Just being alive is such a lovely and wonderful thing...Live on'

Not sure if the above quote really comes from the real Aya-chan's diary, but the main idea is there... The year 2006 has been a 'dramatic' year for me and I muz had really shed 'a litres of tears' as i watched Korean's Dae junggeum, Sad love story, Goong and K-movies like 'A moment to remember, Daisy, The Classic....' I thought this wld be a korean-theme yr until i came across the jap-drama '1 litres of tears' and subsequently 'Taiyou no uta'... i muz say jap-drama really aced in the pace and plot and of coz the cast..

Anyway back to the drama that made me shed bulk of the tears (since i cried in almost every episode..), the most touching thing was the diary the main character, Aya, wrote in. From the initial neat handwritting which recorded the start of the high school life she's been anticipating to the increasingly 'in-readible' heart-wrenching words of fears and helplessness...the diary really recorded and traced the short but well cherished life of Aya..

Thought of the 'diary' I have written abt 3 years ago...which recorded the 1 mth i took to complete an 'art-work'. Of coz this is nothing compared to Aya's diary, but it's really amazing to look back and to revisit a 'well-documented' chapter in your life.... the exact feelings and emotions were revived once again and i really didnt know whether i shld cry becoz it's ended or smile and be glad that it had actually happened..guess this somehow rekindle the 'writing spirit' in me (if there's any in the 1st place..)..shall make this one of my new yr resolutions to start with.

Spent the last moments of the year 2006 with myself and clearing my room.... been throwing alot of stuff away, including my complete collection of 'i-weekly' (yah.. guess im a weirdo for collecting them haha).. physical and emotional baggage needs to be emptied every now and then i guessed..to welcome new stuff?? i hope so too...

Some random thoughts and new yr resolutions for 2007:
1) To be strong and healthy
2) To start learning driving
3) To read more and write more regularly..
4) To have a new start...

The year has gone but it has also made us strong.
The path was long but we walked it with a song.
There were fears and tears but we also had reasons for cheers.
Wishing you Happy Memories of 2006 and have a fulfilling 2007.

to be continued...